Only the Best Days

Not all is bleak and dark. Behold, my fondest memories!

- My first visit to the yearly rally in the region, 1993. Standing outside at the end of November in the freezing cold at 3AM with my dad, my uncles and my cousins. Almost falling asleep against a tree inbetween trials and being taken to the nearest bar for....hot coco.

- Family holiday in Center Parks for my parents' 25th wedding anniversary, 2010. All 6 of us together, just having fun. Spending the day in the tropical pool, eating old-style hamburgers, relaxing in the hot tub, having a fantastic grilled meal in our VIP-cottage with sauna, sitting on the sofa's watching 'Australia' and getting pleasantly drunk off of the Beertender brews.

- Watching the 'Tour of Eleven Cities' with my dad, 1997. Being waken up at 4.30 in the morning for a surprise, going down and seeing the couch pulled up to the TV and snacks all over the table. Sitting down and watching the start of the first and so far only Tour of my life. We sat there all day, till the finish line closed at 11.59PM and we felt sorry for the people who finished a minute too late and didn't get their reward. 'Watch and enjoy son, this is a unique event and there may never be one ever again'....oh how right he has been.

- Touching down in Poland after a 2 hour flight, 2009. My first plane trip, my first holiday, my first time further away than my own country, my first time visiting WoW-folk, my first time away on my own, my first time clubbing and dancing. And for all that, only 2 days of planning went into it. The biggest leap of faith I've ever taken and the one that paid out the most. Perhaps not right away but certainly the aftereffects.

- My first kiss, 2009. Every detail, every smell, every feeling...Burned into my memory for all times.

- Discovery of my musical tastes, 2007. One slow Wednesday evening, I tuned into the WoW-Radio show 'the Lorekeepers' and got blasted by VNV Nation's 'Honor'. It changed the way I looked and still look at music and the type of music I prefer. Electronic, Industrial, Techno, this is my kind of music!

- Purchasing a major appliance with hard-earned cash, 2004. A big, shiny beast of a computer. Put together from selected parts by Dell, this black beauty still serves me well. She will be retired within a month, to be replaced with a significant upgrade. She won't be forgotten though.

- First time I got drunk, 1994. My Holy Communion, a big occasion over here and reason to party hard. I spent the evening emptying my esteemed guests' beer bottles with my straw, resulting in my parents putting me underneath a stream of cold water in the shower, afraid I might pass out from euphoria and/or alcohol overdose. Sipping beer through straws is not done, especially not when 8 years old...

Post at 2.45am? That can't be good!

Sure it can, actually! Had some creative thoughts flow to me and had to write stuff down, as usual. So enjoy this 'thingy' I thought up, based on my current situation but not aimed at anyone in particular. It's got an intro and everything.

'All about me'

Without day, there is no night
Without darkness, there is no light
Without good, no bad
Without black, no white


If springtime is the beginning and winter is the end
Then my life is now in summer, autumn lurking ‘round the bend
I am hoping to get there some day with no sorrow and no regrets
And a very special someone, taking me by the hand

All I ask is understanding, tender love and care
Give me what I give you, for it is only fair
I want truth and attention, a kiss and a smile
Can you handle that? Come and prove it, if you dare

Demands are not an option, this is mostly give and take
Scold me never for my flaws, only the wrong choices that I make
Good days, bad days, happy days and sad days
Each moment I want to share with you, while asleep and while awake

I do not have all the answers and that would not be much fun
Not choosing my own battles, only those that could be won
But it is the lost ones that count too, that make me who I am
Not just the good things, but also the bad stuff I have done

Maybe I should ask you, to forgive me for being me
But that is just the thing, I can not do that, see
If you can not take me for who I am
Then I am sorry, but we are not meant to be

It took some time to realize, some time before it got through
We all get what we deserve, whatever we are due
All I ask is that special someone with me
And that someone...that is you.....