The spice must flow and so must the ideas

So here I present you 3 short 'poems' I came up with while listening to some songs after a bad day. Nothing major or worthy of Poe but it'll do...

They're named after the song that inspired them, I included them in the brackets below the title.

Sav.


Cocoon
(Cocoon – Assemblage 23)

The inside, soft and protecting
The warmth and safety

The outside, harsh and cold
Enemies all around, preying on you

The inside, tight and comforting
Alone to gather thoughts

The outside, getting brighter
The sun starts to warm things up

The inside, like a brick wall
Keeping you from harm

The outside, inviting and good
Waiting for me to come out

The inside gives way, opening the door to the outside
But the outside is not as the inside was

I go back inside....



Mad World
(Mad World – Gary Jules)

As I walk the streets, do my eyes see
The world around or the world inside of me
Not one person looking up
Not one person seeing the world that could be

Halfway down the street, everyone in neverland
A familiar face calls out, raises up his hand
I respond without much joy
He cannot understand...

The world inside is strange to see
No one knows it besides me
Maybe one day, things will be looking up
And I can share this world if needed be

My face towards the pavement, eyes in neverland
I bite my lip and clench my hand
I can still remember joy
I just do not understand...



Illusion
(Illusion – VnV Nation)

Just when it’s all about to fall apart
That one person swoops in to save you
Like it’s an illusion

They make everything seem okay again
They put you back on your feet
But it’s an illusion

When the worlds is out to get you
They keep you safe from harm
Or is that an illusion

A private space for just you two
Where no one will disturb you
That world is an illusion

Your day is bright and shiny again
Nothing can bring you down!
Is this an illusion?

Separation will come, always
Time without the other
Please don’t shatter my illusion

I need you, or think I do
Everything seems darker without you
Rejoin my illusion

The way I look at me is not like you
You see me for what I truly am
I am an illusion

Stay a While...and Listen

Woah, it's been too long since I posted something! Probably due to either nothing happening at times or too much to even begin thinking about posting it up...

Several things have happened lately that have advanced me in a good direction. Firstly I have 'added' some people to my list of Angels, a list very hard to get onto and nearly impossible to get stricken off from. An old friend returned, a new one appeared from a warm and cold place, another new one from close by with so many similar interests it's almost scary and then of course the new old one that is far away but always with me in my heart and mind.

I love every single one of them, granted, one more than the others....and I'm not going to apologize for it either! Some people will always remain just friends, be it very good friends. Others will go beyond that barrier (in record time I might add).

This ties in nicely to my being away for just over a week. I stayed with a friend across the country to work. Yes, I did actual work and I liked it. It was hard, no doubt about it. My hands were literally destroyed when I got home, blisters on my feet, foot soles cracked and busted and painful knees to top it off. But....the people were awesome. I met so many interesting folks there, some of which I exchanged online info with to keep in touch.

The WoW Nerd, the study-man, the traveler, the silly girl, the party girl, the teacher, the foreigner, the gangster-wannabe, the lazy guy....Names are connected to each one of those stereotypes now and I fit right in.
I was hesitant at first to get mixed in with a group of 30 people I've never met but I turned out some kind of popular guy at the end of the week. The guy who's always smiling, telling people to look at the bright side. The guy you want to sit with for the 30 minutes we had to eat dinner, who joked around in a good way during the 2 breaks we got for the whole day.

Only later did I realize this was because I went in there with a 'lets just be me and see what happens' attitude. Something I seem to lack severely at times. The idea I have to live up to the image I think people have of me when I've been talking to them online but not face to face is what can hold me back. That problem doesn't exist when you meet someone for real and it's actually the first time.

So now it's up to me to translate and adapt that thought and behavior to my existing situations, be me all the time, even when people then think they might have gotten the wrong idea first time around.

During this week I've also been rethinking my plans of using the money to travel places. Sure, I still want to meet all those people but it doesn't look like they are as enthusiastic as I am about it and to be fair, I could use the money for other things. Mainly to GTFO of this house! I seriously need my own place soon or I'm gonna go crazy from the constant bickering between people, the lowly attitude and the thought that someone can burst into my room any second and declare they got me a job at place where I start tomorrow for at least 5 years...

Anyways, I think this about sums up the month and half gap I left here, more to come soon (perhaps?), you never know!