Several things have happened lately that have advanced me in a good direction. Firstly I have 'added' some people to my list of Angels, a list very hard to get onto and nearly impossible to get stricken off from. An old friend returned, a new one appeared from a warm and cold place, another new one from close by with so many similar interests it's almost scary and then of course the new old one that is far away but always with me in my heart and mind.
I love every single one of them, granted, one more than the others....and I'm not going to apologize for it either! Some people will always remain just friends, be it very good friends. Others will go beyond that barrier (in record time I might add).
This ties in nicely to my being away for just over a week. I stayed with a friend across the country to work. Yes, I did actual work and I liked it. It was hard, no doubt about it. My hands were literally destroyed when I got home, blisters on my feet, foot soles cracked and busted and painful knees to top it off. But....the people were awesome. I met so many interesting folks there, some of which I exchanged online info with to keep in touch.
The WoW Nerd, the study-man, the traveler, the silly girl, the party girl, the teacher, the foreigner, the gangster-wannabe, the lazy guy....Names are connected to each one of those stereotypes now and I fit right in.
I was hesitant at first to get mixed in with a group of 30 people I've never met but I turned out some kind of popular guy at the end of the week. The guy who's always smiling, telling people to look at the bright side. The guy you want to sit with for the 30 minutes we had to eat dinner, who joked around in a good way during the 2 breaks we got for the whole day.
Only later did I realize this was because I went in there with a 'lets just be me and see what happens' attitude. Something I seem to lack severely at times. The idea I have to live up to the image I think people have of me when I've been talking to them online but not face to face is what can hold me back. That problem doesn't exist when you meet someone for real and it's actually the first time.
So now it's up to me to translate and adapt that thought and behavior to my existing situations, be me all the time, even when people then think they might have gotten the wrong idea first time around.
During this week I've also been rethinking my plans of using the money to travel places. Sure, I still want to meet all those people but it doesn't look like they are as enthusiastic as I am about it and to be fair, I could use the money for other things. Mainly to GTFO of this house! I seriously need my own place soon or I'm gonna go crazy from the constant bickering between people, the lowly attitude and the thought that someone can burst into my room any second and declare they got me a job at place
Anyways, I think this about sums up the month and half gap I left here, more to come soon (perhaps?), you never know!
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