Tomorrow will be okay

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What do you do when you go against everyone? Ignore every opinion and piece of advice because you 'feel' something?
Am I right in doing what I do because I believe something or am I a stubborn idiot on a crash course.


I'm on the outside
and I'm looking in

The above song suddenly made perfect sense to me. I'm great at distancing myself and looking at a situation objectively, analyzing it and coming up with a way to deal with whatever is wrong. However when I try to follow that plan, trouble starts. I have to lose my objectivity and feelings mess it all up again.

I seem to be between a rock and a hard place, far from the warm and safe spot I want to be in. Do I do the 'right' thing or the....'right' thing? There is no right thing when it comes to feelings, only love or pain.


I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

You are like me in many ways, you feel you're not right, not complete, not normal whatever that is. And because you are like me I can relate. I know how you feel and what goes on in your head..mostly.


All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend

It aches. It stings. It burns. It hurts. Every time you disappear, every time you're there but not really. Every time I miss you. Every time I think about you. Every time I see people kissing, walking hand in hand or enjoying themselves.

Lots of times I don't understand things, I try to understand but you can't or won't let me. It's hard to start a conversation, to continue it or to have it be about something important.

So why do I still feel like I do. Why is there this burning love that still fills me up when I see you, even when you don't see me. I had hoped you could tell me but you can't. I don't know if you can even tell yourself.


But I feel
Tomorrow will be okay

In the end I always go on. Mostly by myself with support from those who really matter. Those who care and think I should go on in the first place. After every fatal mistake I make they don't say 'I told you so'. They say 'I'm sorry for what happened, please recover and become yourself again'.

No matter how bad I feel or will feel in time to come, tomorrow....will be okay.