Promises kept and promises broken

*sigh* Today...today is the day I dread the most every year, for every year it is the same. February 14th, globally dubbed 'Valentine's Day' is the most horrible holiday in the year for me. Why? Because I cannot take part in it.
Not because I think it's an overly-commercialized holiday, which I do, but because I have no reason to celebrate it.

For all my 'hate' for this day, I can say for sure that I would partake if I had someone to accompany me for it. But as we all know, love has never been on my side and this year is no exception.

I promised someone I would not sit at home and be dreary all day like I usually did. So I went to school, ignored the abundance in pink and chocolate-brown, the eye-catching couples kissing like their lives depended on it and the more than usual amount of holding hands going on. Today, I acted neutral. Like I didn't give a crap, which isn't far from the truth actually.

I really don't care anymore. People can do what they want, I'm not bothered anymore. I have more important things to worry about than some silly holiday that is at it's core flawed (not getting into that now).

I have a big assignment due before 21.00, several of my friends are having less than fantastic goings-on and I have a list from here to Tokyo with stuff that has to be taken care of 'immediately'.

So besides this post, I will mention it no further.


Promises, yes...I like those. They're the unofficial test of one's personality and trustworthiness. Breaking a promise is lethal to me. I broke several the past few weeks and it sucks. Of course most people will say 'don't worry, it's okay' but it's really not. I betrayed someone's trust, however small, by not keeping a promise and it's hard to make up for it.

I also made new promises, those I intend to keep. An awesome visit from a friend next week, another visit to someone in a few weeks time, ingame obligations ranging from farming an absurd amount of herbs and fish to attending a raid with friends on a day I kinda can't. But it doesn't matter, for a promise is always a promise, no matter what the end result might be.

Finally, I will leave you with another song from my favorite group Assemblage 23, with the usual depressing title. It's not to be taken literally though, this one is more about the general direction of the lyrics and the flow of the music.