So it's been a while...

I thought it was time again to write down my thoughts and, most of it, my woes. Things have changed since my last post. Some for the better, some for the worse. I'll just start at the beginning and see where I end up I guess.

Last weekend, wow, probably the most life changing experience I've ever had. I'm not really sure how open I can be about the whole thing but I'm gonna try my best to convey my feelings as I see fit. So I went to see this woman I really like. Even before I actually met her I liked her and in a crazy, spine-growing experience, I even told her that. To my surprise (kinda) she did not bite my head off, call me names or otherwise insult me.

I spent Saturday and Sunday at her place, generally relaxing, talking, laughing and cuddling. Seeing as my life up until now has been lacking any kind of real social and physical contact I was afraid I was gonna overload right there and then >.<
Needless to say things went well and as soon as I boarded the train home I started to miss her.

The past week I've been thinking about her a lot, as well as talking to her and texting her. Every time I wish she was here, so I could hold her and she could hold me. So I could kiss her and she could kiss me. But I also feel bad for thinking about it that much. I know she's got a very busy life and can't just take 2 days off to come hang out with me, drink a beer, watch a movie. It makes me feel selfish, because it's my fault I don't have anything better to do all day, to take my mind off things. Seeing all the people around me happily prancing around with girlfriends, wives, kids, etc is also not really uplifting.

All I can do now I guess is to wait when we can see each other again, if ever. I'm still a bit confused as to how all this should work but expert advice tells me it always takes time. The last thing I want is to come across as pushy or annoying because that's never good.

With that out of the way, what else happened? 2 people I know got pregnant, I ate my 2nd Sub evah and it tasted great, Dutch national gift-giving holiday came and went without leaving me much good and that's about it I guess.....

Tune in next time for more ramblings, whenever I feel like it....