One Spark among the Embers

Turbulent week? Not quite, but still filled with surprises and excitement.

On Monday I got elected to top student of my class, to my biggest surprise. Turns out I aced all my exams to claim my 30 credits in one big whammy. Imagine what it had looked like, had I actually studied for them! Only 3 others achieved the same feat, 1 of them rivaling my numbers but none with the commentary I got:

'Sav has scored the maximum amount of credits available in 2 semesters and we, as Avans AAFM board, have determined him to be 'Top Student of the First Half of the First Year' due to outstanding performance, quality of paperwork, excellent group dynamic and overall positive presence in and out of the classroom'.

Imagine the look on my face when reading that....Too bad my parents didn't share my enthusiasm but I've grown so used to that, it hardly bothers me anymore. Of course my high-demands sister's search for 'the perfect house' is way more interesting to blab about every day.

Had several friends over and visited several as well. Good ol' hanging out with nibbles and drinks, good stuff on TV and catching up with goings on.
Of course the major event of the year coming up in a few days: Superbowl! The pinnacle of staying up late, friends, booze, entertainment and more American-themed food than you can shake a stick at!

In other news, I need to congratulate Ozzy. Either for making me believe the most incredible lie ever told to me or for living the dream. Go you, kinda. Because I won't deny my face is still green with jealousy and mild hate. Yes, hate. Not in the 'die in a fire kinda way' but 'goddammit, why does stuff like that never happen to me kinda way'. And don't tell me I have to go look for it, you didn't either. The phrase 'it got thrown into your lap' comes to mind, literally and figuratively.

On to something quite related. My issue of the year that I need to work on, motivation. If even my mentor, who's known me for about 4 months now, says it's my biggest flaw, then I seriously need to get a grip on it.
Lack of motivation can lead to several negative issues such as poor performance, lack of interest in important things and lack of drive to do anything at all. It's so important to know that everything you do matters, that you're working towards something, something not as vague as 'in 4 years time I'll graduate'.

Motivation comes from a goal, something important you want to work for or work towards. There is no such thing for me, nothing concrete or tangible that I think is worth working hard for. So I slack, I let things slip, I work halfheartedly on things that should matter. In essence, I don't deserve that whole price, the runner up did. Poor Pip, who woke up every at 7 during the holiday to study her ass off and got the good grades. I told her that, but it just doesn't have the same impact as getting first place.

I'll wrap it up with the following clip, which puts all the above in the correct perspective. Enjoy the beat, the usual awesome lyrics and overall feel.




Sav.