The Ankh
The Ankh stands for life, infinity in loops and for me, friendship.
The symbol in question has been hanging from my keychain for years now and has been going everywhere with me. It was a gift from a dear friend for my 16th birthday, who got it from Egypt. I cherish it for its sentimental value but also its meanings.
Life, we all have it and we'll all lose it at some point. I'm not to bothered about the 'when' because the 'if' is a certainty. Live life to the fullest, avoid regrets at the end.
Infinity, in loops or just on its own, is a common theme. Life to death to new life. Recycling of all kinds. It can also refer to the cycle of mistakes one makes or the inevitable loops some of us end up in. They are hard to break.
Friendship is the most important thing in the world to me. Without my friends, there would be no me. I rely on them as much as some of them rely on me and that comforts me, knowing people out there support each other.
The Heart
The heart stands for love, for hope and for feelings. It doesn't show up much in my daily life besides the one beating in my chest and others, and the ones I try to send to a special someone when I can.
Love, so warm yet so cold. So inviting yet so repulsing. It can delight you in the basking warm rays or burn you in its scarring flames. We all need it, crave it on a deep down level of our hearts. We might get burned over and over or we get lucky and find that one person that makes us happy for the rest of our lives. Whatever the case, love will always be there in some form. Whether we like it or not.
Hope is something you need to survive. It's needed to cling onto in situations that seem to have none of it. Friends and loved ones can provide you with it or you can conjure up some yourself if you are that strong a person. Hope is the last barrier between you and horribly wrong choices.
Feeling are what I am proud of, in secret. Most people don't see me the way some of you do, the way I really am. The society we live in does not appreciate an overflow of emotions in a man and I adapt to that. I remain stoic and wholly masked when I'm outside, giving off an air of indifference and boredom at the world around me. Inside and to my closest friends, I shed that cloak and share what I feel. I hug, I cuddle, I cry, I despair about everyday things. As everyone should. Until that day, this is me in disguise.
The Skull
The skull represents death, but also reason in thinking and hardiness. It's omnipresent in my life, especially my room. Stuffed with horror movies, scary books and posters, it looked more like a freak-show than a bedroom before I changed it around.
I've come close to death on more than one occasion, though not quite on a personal level. Important people around me have died, not all in a peaceful way, and for some of them I wept tears of joy, that there passing was earned and they'd gotten a better life, if you believe in that. For some I wept tears of bitterness, for they weren't supposed to go yet and it might have been better had I been in there place. Tears of sorrow were shed for both my parents, whom I nearly lost 7 years ago due to unforeseen circumstances. I'll never forget what that was like, feeling like any minute I could be totally alone in the world so I'm happy it didn't come to pass.
Reason in thinking is an aspect of myself I take pride in. Underneath the emotions is a part of me that is capable of cold, hard decision-making. I can be ruthless if needed be. According to various 'official' tests that I don't care about, I have an IQ of over 145, well big woop. Being intelligent is having good brains, being smart is using those brains. I'm mostly in the former category, not caring about using this intellect but for what interests me. A downside of having it I guess. Strategic thinking, problem analysis and seeing the big picture are some of my qualities, as showing from my almost complete degree in (human) resource management. Some call it boring, I call it 'having control'.
Hardiness is a necessity in life. Getting back up after the fall, taking the blows and withstanding whatever gets thrown at you. At times, I sink in a well of self-pity but in a way I do always come out. There's always something or someone that gives me that last nudge that I needed to recover, where hardiness and steadfastness kept me afloat for the rest of the duration. The ability to not stay down will serve one until the end.
The Music Key
The music key represents music and relaxation. I listen to music every minute that I am awake. Extensive playlists on my Youtube account, my Spotify account and my pc assure me that there is always something to listen to. And every day, my collection grows because other people introduce me to new songs that fit my bill.
Music is a way for me to adjust my setting and surrounding to my mood. Anger, sadness, joy or nostalgia, all have their own music associated with it. 'Theme songs' signify the most powerful music in a specific category and they have been with me ever since I started using music in this way. My taste is very diverse, there is very little music I detest or reject on it's label alone. Every song needs to be listened to, no matter the artist or the genre it is from. And when it might not be for you, someone else is sure to give meaning to it in some form or another. My current biggest passion lies with the electronic. Punk, techno, industrial, you name it, I like it. There's just something about the contrast between synthesized sounds and the feelings they convey, as well as the immense diversity the genre has shown.
Relaxation can be achieved in many ways. Through music, through gaming, through being with friends and family, through doing nothing at all or lots of things at once. And it doesn't matter how you relax, as long as you do relax once in a while. Being busy all the time can be rewarding but in calm and quiet you find new appreciation for things and it lets you get perspective on a lot of things.
Sav.
I think there is a symbol that you may have missed out. But I'll add it in - The Sun. The warm and comforting support that it provides that allows us to see and helps us grow. The rays of which can help someone in a dark and desperate place become stronger and more reassured.
ReplyDelete*points and nods*
I hope I've made my point ;)