With a Song in My Heart

So after a few days of downer posts and raging, I feel like I'm having a pretty good day so far. Had a talk with a very good friend yesterday about.. a lot of things that made perfect sense. I guess I just needed to hear them said? Anyway, I thought that today I'd do something different! Below, you will find a handful of songs each dedicated to a single person. No names, just a description about what this song evokes in me.



Florence + The Machine - Shake It Out
For you, who's been a friend for a long time now. Proving everyone wrong who says you can't have friendship online. Thank you for inspiring me with ideals, thank you for being there whenever I need you even though I'm not an easy person when I am in need and thank you for trusting me enough to talk to me about your problems as well. Life ain't fair, but it's worth living



Fractured - Haunted Memories
For you, who was the second one to betray me in a most horrible way. We didn't share a long nor a happy time together but I will still remember you for what you did, good and bad. Thank you for opening my eyes to the truth of online relationships and their need to evolve beyond a screen. Thank you for showing me you can never really know someone, no matter how much you talk to them on a daily basis. Thank you for unwittingly preparing me for what I'm going through right now.



Jennifer Paige - Crush
For you, who was the first one to show me what real pain from love was. The first person I considered a girlfriend, the first person to put me aside like nothing and move on with the speed of light. Thank you for showing me that it's important to always be yourself, especially if you are sometimes someone else. Thank you for being the first to look at me in that certain way that says I can be more to someone than a friend. Thank you for my first kiss.



Huey and the News - the Power of Love
For you, who invited me into your home several times but ended up fading from my life. I still think of you regularly, regretting the way we parted. Thank you for showing me the best of times when I needed them. Thank you for encouraging me to travel however long I need to enjoy myself. Thank you for letting my inexperienced sense of sexuality explore you in ways I never had before up until the final step which I wasn't ready for at that time. Thank you for letting me introduce you to the awesomeness that is Back to the Future. Thank you for all the late nights spent on THF in Skype with the gang, expanding every horizon I had to this day.



Bruno Mars - The Way You Are
For you, who was with me for a long long time. I am still not over you and I am not sure I ever will. Maybe some part of me still hopes, against all odds. Another part of me has already given up on you and let you go because you seem to have done that already to me. Maybe some day I can be happy for your newfound love, but not today, not any time soon. Thank you for those amazing years. Thank you for being the person who taught me I can be loved, deserve to be loved for who I am with all my ups and downs, my flaws and excellencies. Thank you for being both my friend and lover up to just recently. Thank you for making me believe in true love even though it doesn't always end in sunshine and rainbows. Thank you for sharing so much with me: music, games, jokes, movies, lazy afternoons, days outside, strokes on my cheek, backrubs, resting yourself in my lap on the couch. Thank you.



Rihanna - S&M
For you, who taught me sexuality isn't something to hide or whisper about but to be proud of, to be spoken of and to be enjoyed. Thank you for showing me that women talking about sex has nothing to do with promiscuity but with being comfortable with themselves. Thank you for those late night conversations where you tricked me into saying good things about myself because I couldn't do it otherwise. Thank you for being the biggest tease I've ever known and still popping up in my dirty dreams every so often.